It's hard to remember that I had a blog for so long.
Anyway, this kind of tells you where I am as far as personal development goes. I went from "I'm a cynical bastard" to writing romance novels. Who knew?
Anyway, the next few days should be very much like this. I have a guest coming into New York City for the next few days, and I'm going to be playing tour guide all the way.
This one is a little strange to look at. The profile on Manana has been modified due to image issues, and the original pic is replaced with the lovely and talented author Kia Heavey. If you haven't read her books, I do recommend them.
Again, there will be several of these over the next few days, so yes, I'll be out and about. There will be a radio show on Sunday, and that should go up, And I may even have a music post squeezed in somewhere. But I'll be wrapped up until around Tuesday. And, since my blog audience has more than tripled since then, this should be new to a great many people.
Be well, all.
“[T]hink about it ... You know how good this is? .... How right it feels? .... How easy it was? .... It just isn't f**ked up enough to really be you and me.” ~Harry Dresden, in Jim Butcher's short story "Love Hurts."In case the readers of this blog have not caught on yet, I'm a little strange.
At which point, I can just see each of you recollecting every other instance of borderline schizophrenia that I have described in my blogs on writing, and answering: “Duh.”
In this case, I have two very strong streaks in my personality. Lots of cynicism, and lots of romanticism …
On the one hand, I believe that all people are essentially good ... on the other, I believe that groups of people are stupid.
I believe in meeting someone, and being in love with them for the rest of my life ... and I go into first dates wondering how fast the phrase “let's just be friends” will appear in the conversation.
I believe in God, the Father Almighty, Creator of Heaven and Earth, and in Jesus Christ His only Son Our Lord ... and on the other hand, if one more person mindlessly spouts random Bible passage without knowing ANYTHING about the context or the meaning, I will be sorely tempted to hurt them.
And my problem is that I see nothing contradictory about the above statements. “Good” does not equal “smart;” and when people get into large groups, the average IQ only goes down. “Belief” doesn't automatically mean “theology scholar;” and if someone becomes a monomaniac about a favorite passage of Revelations (which reads like the author is on magic mushrooms), it's hard to do anything about it.
My cynicism and sharp, biting opinions have brought people to me, asking for “relationship advice” …. I usually specialized in “Anti-Cyrano” letters for friends of mine, where I write a letter crystallizing a person's feelings and putting it into a diatribe at his or her ex, blasting said ex with enough wit that s/he feels like s/he brought a knife to an artillery duel.
On the other hand, when I can't talk to one I care about, I settle for reading instant message logs. Can you say "sap"?
About a year ago, I started writing a love letter. I listed all the reasons why I was falling for this one woman. I explained I felt drawn to her wit, her IQ, her looks. I liked how many of our interests aligned. How good a friend she was to me. We were made for each other …
And other romantic tripe.
By the end of the letter, I told her that the whole thing was a stupid idea. I had met her once. We lived over a thousand miles apart. We talked on the phone, but that was no reason for me to become a romantic sap about it. I care about her too much to put her together with an obvious nutjob like me. She should do the sane thing, and run as far away from me as possible.
Before I had even finished the letter, I had made several conclusions about another character a writer friend was working on – someone who was also crazy, but smart enough to know he was crazy, and if he fell in love with someone, he would know better than to inflict his crazy on anyone else.
I don't think I'm the only person who could start a love letter, and end with character profiles for a fictional character, after trying to talk the object of my affection out of associating with me further, for her own good.
If you thought I was strange before, now you know better.
This actually comes in handy for writing a love story for spies in A Pius Man.
You knew I had to relate it back to the novel somehow.
As mentioned, A Pius Man also has a love story in there, between two people who are constantly questioning what the hell they think they're doing.
Manana Shushurin of the German BND, and Scott “Mossad” Murphy are brought together to investigate the assassination of a high-ranking al-Qaeda strategist.... the only reason anyone cares is that no one is claiming credit for the killing. The CIA thinks Mossad did it. Mossad thinks the CIA did it. And then they realize that no one they know did it.
Enter the two most diametrically opposed characters I've ever written.
Scott is a stiff. He is professional, and disciplined, and “Damnit, if I stare at her, someone will slip a knife into my ribs.”
Throughout the novel, both of them are wondering what the hell they're doing, with various excuses: Have both of them been alone for so long, and are so desperate, that each is latching onto the first person of interest? Seriously, what moron would fall in love in the middle of a stakeout? And why is s/he kissing me and … nevermind.
As I said, I am a romantic sap. Thankfully, the cynical side of me takes that sap and smacks me over the head with it.
And there will be Manana standing over Sean Ryan's blood-soaked body. But that's another story.